I’m not going to make any excuses as to why I haven’t been blogging.
I have none.
The truth is…I haven’t wanted to.
I’ve been writing. Quite a bit actually. But I’ve also been very insular. Independent. Alone. All things I am not proud of. Not the words I want them to chisel on my headstone, if you know what I mean. But I’ve just not felt like putting myself out here into the blogosphere.
I still don’t really feel like it.
But I do feel like something is missing. I’m lonely. My spirit is lacking something. And I believe that something is “otherness.”
We are created by God to be in community. For some this is easy. Some crave companionship and social interaction. But for me, this is a hard reality. I much rather sit in my house with my book and my computer than in a coffee shop with a latte and a friend.
That’s just how I’m wired.
And that’s okay.
But it doesn’t mean that I must or should stay solo. If we are created for community, then I am not fully living if I deny myself the company of others in one form or another. And others are not fully alive without being with me. If Christ abides in his followers, than I cannot know him fully without sharing life with his beautiful creation.
So I’m meekly creeping back into this practice of sharing myself with you. Little by little. Step by step. No promises. No specific goals.
But it’s a start.